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Tonight I sat with my husband, my two oldest boys and their wives and watched the movie "fireproof". All I can say is phenomenal! That has to of been the best movie I have seen in a long time. I laughed, cried, laughed some more and then at the end learned more! Just AWESOME!!!!
If you haven't seen it you should. I have always been a firm believer in making the marriage work anyway, this just made it even more clear to me. I enjoyed it so much. Even if your just in a relationship I would suggest watching it together.
Well, I am getting nervous again, I leave for Dallas Sunday morning at 10 am and I was told that I would be flying. I hate to fly so that was a relief, but then I was told I had to wait! I am hoping that it is set in stone this time. I am ready. I can't wait to make a career change and do my best! I hope that my kids will still be supportive a few months from now! They are ready to get rid of me right now! LOL!
Well I better go for now. Talk at ya'll later!

Hey ya'll

How's it going today? I got up at 5am and went back to sleep around 730 Potatoes make me sleep! I know better than to eat them@ any time!!!

I am so glad that I had my day to me yesterday. I am leading the birthday meeting tonight and I am super sad that CNC won't be there. I will miss her, but, I also celebrated with her on her day! I made spaghetti for dinner and I have to make a cake. I love to bake, but I don't like what it does to me!!!!

It's been a great day today. I was looking at the option of driving instead of flying. I hate to fly! I like to see where I am and I hate heights! I will save at least a hundred bucks driving! I think I will go that route if I can! In my little car (which I love) I can get there on 30.00. How cool is that?

I am so glad that I get to know others this way. I should go for now so that I can stop procrstinating and bake this cake

okay

I'm back it's late and I can't sleep again. I really enjoyed the music on the blogs I read last night! Pooh corner almost made me cry. I haven't heard that in years. I am laying here thinking about something that I really need to say. For years I went untreated in any way for the mental illness. I had attempted suicide a couple of times obviously yo no avail. Thanks to my Heavenly Father I am still here.

I windered for a long time what purpose do I serve? I finished up my scrapbook tonight. my first one and I couldn't believe all of the people that have touched my life in one way or another. I have heard from several people from my past recently. I think that there is a specific reason, I just don't know what that might be. Some I know I need to make amends to, others I guess it was time. For me I love the fact that I have the ability to be someone today. I also take my meds now whereas before noone thought I needed them. Let me be off of them for a while and see how they like it! LOL! Just kidding...

I don't play around today, I can't. Life is way too precious. well, gotta go for now. 5 am will come very early!

Well

I know that is a very deep subject! I finally got some sleep only to be woken up that the kids missed seminary again this morning. I am responsible for their upbringing but only to a point! LOL!!!

It has been such a lazy day for me thank goodness. I haven't been able to do anything for me all week unless I'm up until 130 in the morning! No good. I wanta sleep!

Anyway I'm just being silly at this point. I did some scapbooking last night and this morning and my pages are very cute I think. I love to do that in my spare time. I wish I had more!

I called on my testing for the new job and I will be going in for a class the 24th of Feb and Flying to Dallas to take a class for a week! I am so nervous about flying! I hate it!!! I would much rather drive. I leave on the 15th. It looks like Feb is going to be a very busy month!!!!

I think the most exciting thing is the end of the month though! we all get together as women and have a HUGE slumber party! I can't wait!!!! We girls really know how to Party CLEAN!!! I can't wait because there will be no Men, No KIDS and no dogs up my butt when I'm sleeping!!!!!

If you don't have one weekend in the year that you get together and do something as just Men or just women, try it sometime! this is the 14th annual I believe and I've been going since 2001! You talk about a blast! We get to eat what and when we want, and just PLAY!!!!

Okay, I'll stop making you jealous now. I need to get a shower and get out of my PJ's!

Much LOVE!

man, I just can't get enough!!

I was reading some interesting Blogs this evening and really haven't been able to stop! This can be it's own addiction I think! Thank you for all of your comments. I am finally starting to wear out. I don't get sleepy very easily anymore. I got so irritated earlier when I attempted to post a picture on or with my blog.

As you can see I love dolphins! I think they are the most incredible, serene and intelligent creatures. They love their children and communicate well. All that I aspire for my life. I think that if reincarnation is possible I was born in another life in the ocean!

Anyway, I also Love ducks and geese. I don't know why, but have you ever sat and watched them? They are so incredible! I will attempt to come back tomorrow!

Hey all!

I was going through some stuff trying to find something I lost. A poem that I written when I felt like I could hurt no more over abandonment. Wow My Heavenly Father a real wierd sense of humor.

I found everything but that poem! I found a letter from a young lady that I used to sponsor that ended up dating my son, then got loaded and is now expecting! I only pray she's clean! I haven't heard from her in a while.

I found pictures of my son when he was a little guy and almost started crying because OMG how time flies! I also found 3 pieces of metal. 1 says Love, 1 says Peace and 1 says Wisdom. I thought to myself, where did those come from and then realized that in one of my desperate attempts to try and fill that God void, I spent a fortune on little things that didn't mean a whole lot. At least not at that time.

For me today I so much Love in my life I can't count the ways it is shown, I am starting to feel that peace again that I once had and everyday my Heavenly Father gives me a little more wisdom than I had yesterday. It was definitely meant for me to find those tonight and a lot has happened in a few short years.

I am so blessed! I went to my interview this evening as a matter of fact because of that sense of humor thing again, and OMG! I can totally do this!!!!!! I am so stoked! I am going to Dallas for a whole week to be trained and I do not have to look at the teenagers in my house and suffer from testosterone poisoning from them!!!! YIPEE!!!!!! I can't wait! I am ready for a life altering change that can benefit my entire family.

I know that no matter what, my family is in the care of God and we will get through whatever is thrown our way with gratitude, peace, wisdom, and love.

Hello again

It's been a few days! I did okay with Ariel's birthday. I had to allow myself to FEEL. I don't do that enough I'm told. Today I allowed my son to pay for my nails to get done for my belated birthday present.

That's really huge for me. I don't like them to do for ME. I expect to do for them. I didn't get the one job I was disappointed at first, but I have come to realize that it wasn't in my stars. I have since been offered a position with a person I know from church. I am seriously considering it. I know that it isn't what my husband wanted me to do, but I think I can do this. I have faith in me today!!!!! We will see. I am not going to write a whole lot tonight. I have to take two boys in the morning to get their licenses. I am a little nervous about that:(

Have a great night and a wonderful day tomorrow.