Hey all!

I was going through some stuff trying to find something I lost. A poem that I written when I felt like I could hurt no more over abandonment. Wow My Heavenly Father a real wierd sense of humor.

I found everything but that poem! I found a letter from a young lady that I used to sponsor that ended up dating my son, then got loaded and is now expecting! I only pray she's clean! I haven't heard from her in a while.

I found pictures of my son when he was a little guy and almost started crying because OMG how time flies! I also found 3 pieces of metal. 1 says Love, 1 says Peace and 1 says Wisdom. I thought to myself, where did those come from and then realized that in one of my desperate attempts to try and fill that God void, I spent a fortune on little things that didn't mean a whole lot. At least not at that time.

For me today I so much Love in my life I can't count the ways it is shown, I am starting to feel that peace again that I once had and everyday my Heavenly Father gives me a little more wisdom than I had yesterday. It was definitely meant for me to find those tonight and a lot has happened in a few short years.

I am so blessed! I went to my interview this evening as a matter of fact because of that sense of humor thing again, and OMG! I can totally do this!!!!!! I am so stoked! I am going to Dallas for a whole week to be trained and I do not have to look at the teenagers in my house and suffer from testosterone poisoning from them!!!! YIPEE!!!!!! I can't wait! I am ready for a life altering change that can benefit my entire family.

I know that no matter what, my family is in the care of God and we will get through whatever is thrown our way with gratitude, peace, wisdom, and love.