okay

I'm back it's late and I can't sleep again. I really enjoyed the music on the blogs I read last night! Pooh corner almost made me cry. I haven't heard that in years. I am laying here thinking about something that I really need to say. For years I went untreated in any way for the mental illness. I had attempted suicide a couple of times obviously yo no avail. Thanks to my Heavenly Father I am still here.

I windered for a long time what purpose do I serve? I finished up my scrapbook tonight. my first one and I couldn't believe all of the people that have touched my life in one way or another. I have heard from several people from my past recently. I think that there is a specific reason, I just don't know what that might be. Some I know I need to make amends to, others I guess it was time. For me I love the fact that I have the ability to be someone today. I also take my meds now whereas before noone thought I needed them. Let me be off of them for a while and see how they like it! LOL! Just kidding...

I don't play around today, I can't. Life is way too precious. well, gotta go for now. 5 am will come very early!