Monday, June 8, 2009

It's been a while

I haven't been able to blog for quite a while. I am so glad for 16 hour days and the ability to read, study, ponder and pray. I have had the most incredible time working. I get to focus on myself and my recovery. I am so happy that I can be gone and come home.
I don't miss that nagging sensation of not getting things done. I love the ability that I have to talk with others and share my experience, strength, and hope with people and not take it on, when they have something go wrong. I feel as if I'm free at last.
I called my sponsor today, because I was needing someone else to tell me that I CAN, not I can't. My addict brain likes to play tricks on me sometimes and say things that aren't true. She is so frigging AWESOME! She tells me what I need to hear, not what I want to hear! I love her so much. I am starting to grieve my sisters in recovery and the others as well. I don't get to see them or talk to them much, because I'm always on the go. I will get over that feeling too because they are only feelings. doesn't mean they are reality. I hope all are doing good and I'll try to blog again!