Monday, October 26, 2009
I am not good at this Blogging thing, I am still sick and don't have insurance to go to the doctor. I won't go to the emergency room because there isn't any point in getting others even sicker still. I sit back and watch how my family even the ones on state assisstance or Govt insurance struggle to pay the copays for their medications. My mother for example. Right now is hospitalized with Congestive Heart Failure and liquid has been filling her lungs and around her heart. It's just a matter of time. She couldn't get any assisstance for 15 years for food and yet there are people who get everything because they live dishonestly and who pays for it? Me! I pay my bills and live honestly. There are others who I know that do the same and yet we get screwed. I know that today we have the same issues they did years ago, the only difference is that the Govt spends all kind kinds of money on stupid stuff that doesn't amount to anything worth wise, but we owe TRILLIONS of dollars. That is what the Govt does for us. Puts us further in debt!
I went and purchased a car during that cash for clunkers Cluster **** and got screwed with no lube! The car is wonderful, don't get me wrong, but who can pay for them now with no jobs!!!! KS got a ton of revenue from the stimulus and there were supposedly 6500 jobs.... And those are where exactly?
Luckily, I am great at what I do and was able to find a job quickly, but for a fraction of what I made before! I remember a time as a child that we couldn't eat on what they gave us from the state, and did what we had to to eat. I NEVER will be there again! Never!
I want more than anything the opportunity to show my kids the right way to live, but it gets harder and harder.
On a more positive note, I spent a couple of hours with my absolutely GORGEOUS grand daughter! I have been so on cloud 9 ever since! If I died right now I couldn't be happier! She is a complete love bug and the most wonderful thing is that she's so smart! She knows I'm her grandma and knows her Daddy, now she know her grandpa too! I was so upset for the longest time because, to not get his heart broken he wouldn't see her! Now the courts are involved and there is no going back!
I have written her so many unsent letters, (grand daughter) Now I get to tell her and see her and hold her. And let her FEEL my love! Heavenly Father has blessed me so much that I am just Full of gratitude! The best part of all of it is that She will carry on a part of us! My son has so much love for her and to watch them togather is so fulfilling. I love my children and grandchildren so much. I am the happiest when I am around them. I have been blessed with 2 more on the way!!!!